I suddenly have a new and very profound love in my heart.



..For Borat.

The ranking now officially goes:
1.Sid Vicious
2. Borat
3.Peter


lmao..

Saw "Borat" on Saturday.
Have never laughed so hard or so much in my life.
I fucking loved every minute of it ,
and just thought i would mention it.
More has happend since my last post,
(lots more , actually)
but all of that will have to wait for another time.

Just wanted to let the world know that i have discovered    Sacha Baron Choen , and  he is fantastic! Kazakhstan is fantastic! WHHHHOOO!
<<< Beach bunnies flock to Borat and his fine , sexy , hairy ass!!!


;)

Currently Listening Siamese Dream By Smashing Pumpkins I have the song "Today" on repeat... i hadforgotten how good it was. Have you ever seen the video for it? Its pretty amazing. see related

My Friends are sex-machines ( and other stuff..)

I learned a few things about my friends this past week , and now i dont really know what to think.
First off , i was sitting with Mel in Mass Media ; it was a bit of a free period; Jack , Emile and Vince were preoccupied and off acting dumb together. Mel confessed to me that she was having a bit of a meltdown and that she was horribly ashamed of something she had done. Of course , i was curious. So , she told me her story after i had promised not to share it with anybody else. It turns out that she was in the middle of having sex with her on-again/off-again boyfriend , Ben ,  when she suddenly... queefed. She  expalined that the following few seconds were the most humiliating of her life. Ben was very nice about it , and he laughed and said he didnt care , but she was horribly embarassed. And , i swear to you , she almost starts crying in the middle of Mass Media. i sort of freak out  and tell her to relax and that it seems worse to her than it does to anybody else. I also pointed out how  queefing is totally natural ; it dosent make her a mutant. But she was worried that Ben may look at her differently now because she was the only girl he had ever had sex with , and he didnt have experince with anyone else and may have been a little grosseed  out despite his laughing. she's convinced that he was just covering it up well.  She then asked : " If you queef alot , does that mean you have a loose vagina?! Because i dont think im loose! I've only had sex about... about 50 times in the last year or so. Thats not alot, is it? How could i be loose from that??"
I kind of choked on my own  spit.
Quickly , i reassured her ; " No!! No , thats not alot at all!!"
But thats a LIE!!
FIFTY TIMES??? ARE YOU SERIOUS!!??
And Mel is 15 , a whole year younger than i am. ( Soon to be TWO whole years younger than i am; once November rears it's head.) Mel's dated three or four other guys , excluding Ben , and she's had sex ..50 times.  she actually said " ABOUT  50" , which could mean the number is even higher...or lower , but probably higher!! And , dammit , i suddenly felt so self-concious and small and .. just weird. Its hard to describe. i was really intimidated by that - by ...50. I started to wonder about myself. And , FUCK, i know how tragically High School this all sounds; but i can't help what i feel. i mean.. i've dated guys before too , before Peter , but Peter is the first and only guy i've ever gone all the way with. And i was  the second girl he ever went all the way with. And im very comfortable with Peter ; i love him  , i know i can trust him , we have so much in common and there's nothing i would change , but... am i lagging behind? Am i less experinced than i should be? It's bothering me now. I was actually shocked when Mel said "about 50" ; i knew she wasnt a virgin , but... 50?? is that normal , am i really more of a prude than i thought i was , or is she just...ahead of the pack? Is she an exception... or am I the exception??!! Its fucking confusing. Im almost 17 ; if anybody's done anything 50 times , shouldnt it be somebody my age? I tried to count how many times i've had sex , and i realized that it's not even 10 times yet. i havent even hit the double-digits. It's hoovering somehwere around 7 or 8.  is there something wrong with me , or is Mel just...advanced?
And , oh no, thats not all: I also learned that Sara is no longer a virgin , and that she hasn't been for OVER A YEAR NOW!!!! she's only done it once , but it happend last spring or something. I was jolted by this information. Why did she keep it a secret for so long?? HOW did she keep it a secret for so long?? How did it finally get out?? How the fuck was EMILE one of the first ppl to know??? ( Don't worry , he wasnt the guy, incase your wondering. He just knew before alot of other ppl.) My head is literally spinning.. i mean , i know this is odd , but don't you get certain vibes from ppl? And then , when somebody does something that goes against thier vibe , your just left like..."..whoa..". Mel gives off the vibe of somebody who would be very sexual, you just get that feeling off of her; i mean , i never knew she had done it 50 times , but i never doubted that she had done it. But sara is ..sara , you know? She's kind of little and quirky and not exceptionally extroverted. She dresses casually when she's not in the school uniform and she 's pretty and everything , but not really sexy.i can't really imagine her having sex.. it just dosent suit her. its the same sort of deal with Jenna. after hearing about all the shit she did at camp over the summer , i was just like : " Really? REALLY??!" sex is just so very..un-jenna-ish. I mean , to me , jenna is kind of awkward and gawky. i love her to pieces , but ...you know. She has a great body , but something about her whole demenour is...goofy.Tara tells me that she can perfectly picture Jenna having sex , and thinks it would be funny. Tara then told me about her mom , who once told her : "Your going to laugh the first time you have sex."  Though this sounds strange , i must agree - Tara is the sort of person who would certainly laugh durring sex. Its just how she works. Maybe  this  sexual encounter will be with Chafic.. ;) Speaking of chafic reminds me of Yehuids , who seriously disapproves of his behaviour with Tara and is quite vocal about it. "He hits you , tara , its not right!" , she's been saying recently. "Oh , yehudis , you don't get it!!" Tara says back. And she really doesn't... i , on the other hand , understand the Chafic/Tara dynamic. For as long as i've known them , this is how they've interacted. Its all a game - a rough one , mind you , but a game nonetheless.They 're more like eachother than any other two ppl in the whole school. Since we're on the topic of Yehuids ; her love-life is going places aswell- disturbing places , but still. She's decided that she needs to have a " Sassy School Hook-up" ( her words , not mine) and has picked this Ninth grader named David as her first target. David is in our math class and the teacher sat him next to her and they've gotten to talking. Aside from being younger than Yehuids , David is also a lunatic. so you can imagine why we're all trying to talk her off of this particular ledge. David is 14 , but looks about 19. He has stubble and is quite tall. Yehudis likes him because , according to her , he dresses well. she's spent many a day admiring his shoe selections. Samson has played softball with this kid and has told us about his anger issues , and how he has a tendencey to flip out and throw tantrums and act crazy. He reckons David is kind of dangerous and thinks that Yehudis should be careful around him. Yehudis even admitted that she knows how David once threatend  to kill some girl on MSN. But she has no real problem with it- "He's not crazy." , she says , brushing us all off . " Crazy people dont have expensive shoes."
Some people are just kind of hopeless , i suppose.And i just realized how hypocritical Yehuidis is being- she looks down on Chafic for occassionally , playfully whacking Tara over the head ; and she plans on hooking up with a guy who threatens to not only hit , but KILL , girls. wow , yehuids , you know how to pick the winners and you certainly have a good argument.. .. Yehudis momentarily forgot about David ( who we're all calling "Tina" around school; it's our code-name for him , incase he's ever walking down the hall just as we're discussing his mental instability..i really don't know why we settled on "Tina" , but we did.) when she met a "Hot Italian" who was converting to Judisim at her Synogog ( spelling????!!). She was enchanted by this Italian Stallion , but we all heaved a sigh of relief too soon - she very abruptly decided that the Italian wasnt really that hot after all , and returned to flirting ferociously with David while the teacher talked about a2 + b2 = c2. Now , apparently  , she's been invited to a party of his where all of his " Hot Morrocan" friends will be showing up. ( "Hot Morrocan" guys are Yehudis' favourite brand of "Hot Guy". She talks about them constantly and they're the only guys she ever meets while clubbing. she certainly has a fetish for them.. thier very arrogant , according to her , and stupid , too , but damn sexy. so she loves them.) Tara and I invited ourselves to this party , and told Yehuids to expect us , and she was horrified. " You two can't come!! you'll act weird! you'll embarass me infront of him on purpose!!" She shrilled. We nodded , because , hey , she's right , but we still plan on going. It should be hysterical.
What else is going on , aside from all of these scandulous sexual discoveries?
Well , there is a rumor floating around that we may not be allowed to wear our costumes to school on Halloween this year , which is a monumental drag. i hope beyond hope that it isnt true!! I would be pissed because , for starters , there would be no reason for it- since grade seven , students have been allowed to dress up on halloween . why suddenly change the rules now? What else can they take away from us?? So far this year , they've been restricting and cutting back and tightening our leashes more than ever before - how can they suddenly destroy Halloween for us too? Apparently , the faculty at Westmount High is the Grinch of Halloween. ....Bastards.
I should also let the world know that Meagan isnt upset with me and that there is no tension between us. It was yet another false alarm. She wasn't ignoring me in that bathroom after all. *phew*   Potential disater avoided.
Also , after not having a chance to phone Amanda in about 7000,000, years ; i finally got a call from her and we talked for an hour or two , which was nice , since she is one of my oldest friends -if not , THE oldest.
Here's a  new TV series that im really into and really loving at the moment: "Heroes". Its amazing. it reminds me of X-men ; its about these people from all over the world who are discovering that they have supernatural powers. It's in thier genes and DNA ; they're the" next stage of human evolution." It's pretty fucking cool. This one guy  and his brother can fly , this Japanese guy can teleport and alter time , this cop in Florida can read minds , this artist in New York who also happens to be a junkie can paint the future when he's strung-out , and this cheerleader in Texas is indestructible. The cheerleader clearly has the best power ; she had her neck snapped and she ended up on an autopsy table and her whole chest was ripped open because she was being examined , and she just burst back to life and her ribcage came together again and healed. It was great.
Finally ; on Thursday , after school , Tara and i went to the movies. We had planned to see The Grudge 2 , since that's what i hadn't been able to see with Meagan . We knew it would suck and we wanted to go for a laugh. But then we got to the theater and it hit us :" Oh , hell , we're going to waste $8.50 each to see a shitty movie!" so , we decided to see The Texas Chainsaw Massacre instead - it had a better Halloween feeling to it , and there would be nudity and blood , so it might be more exciting . But the guy at the ticket booth was like : " I need to see ID." i showed mine , and it was ok because im 16 and the movie's rated 16+. But Tara's 15 and the guy didnt believe her when she said that she had forgotten her ID at home  ,so , fuck , we were stuck. And we ended up seeing The Grudge 2 , which was so phenomenally boring and stupid. It didnt even make any sense. There was no sex , no real violence ; sarah michelle gellar was in it for , like , 2 minutes  before being killed off , and i felt really cheated out of a good movie. It wasnt scary... not one part of it was scary. Like Tara said , "The Texas Chainsaw Massacre will always be the "one that got away".." Though , there were some very random and funny moments in The Grudge 2 - for instance , there is a scene where a girl gets so frightned that she pisses herself. And there's another  scene where this girl, apparently possessed or influenced by some evil force , chugs milk and then starts puking it back up into the bottle.And that moment is never explained. Its just there. and i thought , ' Fuck , thats not very evil at all.. puking milk. Is that really the worst that this evil can do?? Even the Exorcist swore a little!" The funniest scene of all is when the main character is sitting on this bus and there's this old man a few yards away from her , playing peek-a-boo or something and making the same weird noise over and over for a good 30 seconds. I couldn't control myself. I was dying in my seat , and so was tara. it was only made worse by the fact that it seemed to go on forever. The longer it went on , the funnier it became., My eyes even started to water.
I will end this entry with a line from Chris Pontius Of the WildBoyz ; i was watching WildBoyz at , like , 1.00 am yesterday and Chris was talking about women who didn't shave down south: " I always tell those women the same thing ; if i had wanted to see Chewbaca , i would have rented Star Wars!"

LMAO....

R.I.P , CBGBS ( and other stuff..)

We are gathered here today....
To mourn the loss..
of an icon.
No , im not talking about any person ,
Im talking about a PLACE.
A place that , for years , was one of the last few reminders on earth of a time when music did other things besides suck.
A national treasure , a place that represented New York in its glory days , a place that every great poet , artist , idiot-savante , anti-hero , genuis , loser , pervert , transvestite and junkie called home .
A place that had an atmosphere that could never be beat , 
A place  that was still having a love affair with the 70s , much like myself.
A place haunted by the ghosts of people like Cheetah Chrome , Joey Ramone , Dee Dee Ramone , Johnny Thunders and Sid vicious.
A place where Iggy pop would hang out and get drunk ,
Where patti smith read all her work on stage ,
Where Richard Hell used to take Tuinals at the bar.
A place that still stood for something great ,
That  completely captured the spirit of the punk-rock scene  and left others in the dust.
It was a fun place , a wild place , the last genuine place in the whole damn city and its being torn down; closed , forgotten , and will probably be replaced by a StarBucks or something of that nature.
No more partying like its 1979 , the heart and soul of downtown New york is being sucked away for the wave of the future , things that are 'modern' ; the beat of the 21st century cannot go ignored.
The Bowery has been polished up and made pretty ,
Max's Kansas city is a shadow of its former self ,
and now CBGBs no longer exists.

Fuck , its depressing.
Im actually really , truly sad.

I've gone all poetic..

A few summers ago , i visited New York and Vermont ( the only two places outside Canada that ive ever been ; i know , its pathetic , but lets not get distracted here..) and when i got to New York , CBGBs was the first place i wanted to see. i told my parents : " I dont care if your tired , i dont care if we havent even gone to our hotel yet , i NEED to see this place!!"
And so went.
And it was beautiful.
Like , seriously beautiful... it had changed since the 70s , it was different from the old pictures , but not so much to the point where you couldnt tell exactly where you were.

You know when you walk into a certain place andyou can just sense all the other ppl who have been there before you?
It was practically a spiritual experince for me..
I was just like:"....................whoa..........................."
I wanted to get on my knees and kiss the floor or something crazy like that.
I had reached my Babylon , my Promise Land.

i had always hated  reading " Please Kill Me.." orwatching documentaries and hearing about and seeing all thse places that i could never go because they werent around anymore. It made me jealous. Like , " shit , i really missed my boat , i was born two decades too late!" There was the Roxy In London and the 100 club and many others.
It would make me go: "GRR!"
It was frustrating.
In 2006 , clubs arent special- there are millions of 'em around Montreal and my friends will go to them on a saturday night and each one is like the next and they all play the same shit thecno/rave music or hip-hop hooks.
And everybody looks the same: like thier trying way too hard , the girls all glossy and whore-tastic and the guys all suave and stylish with Aviater sunglasses and Parasuco jeans.
i want to projectile vomit on all thse trendy hipsters , texting eachother on thier SideKicks and taking pics with thier Razor phones.
*gags*

So , yes , so long CBGBs.
you will be missed by everybody with half a brain , everybody who's disgusted with the lack of originality and creative fire in today's society.
In a sea full of clones and media-zombies , you stood as a symbol of a time when a revolution was in full swing , and a song meant  something and MTV was still just a twinkle in Satan's eye.


Never mind New York ; the whole world wont be the same without your precense.







****************************************************************************
..Moving on from that tragic buisness;
yesterday was FRIDAY THE 13Th !!!! * cue shriek of terror*
Though i didnt run into any men in hockry masks , i did manage to have some fun. It was a mellow day at school ; i had a Sub in history and a Sub in French and English was pretty much a free period. At the monment , im pretty sure Meagan is upset with me , but i dont feel gulity because she's fucking overly-sensitive. see , what happend is that i had told her that i would go and see The Grudge 2 with her after shcool , but then Liela told me that she wanted me to come and help pick out a halloween costume and Quiz and thne i found out that i couldnt go anywhere at all because i had to finish this Mass Media project with my group. Mel , Jack , Vince , Emile , Me and this other guy , Mohammed , had to go and spend the afternoon trying to shoot a commercial. There was no way i could skip it , or i'd be failing thatg class for first term  , you know? I semi-explanied this to Meagan and she just got really quiet , and then when i saw her later on in he bathroom and waved at her , i think she ignored me.
????!!!!
What's her problem , its not like i ditched her on purpose- actually , its not like i ditched her at all. I told her about the rpoject and let her down gently .. besides , its ONLY A MOVIE and we can go any other day. i just happend to have plans already in motion that had slipped my ind. Whatever , its going to bother me for the rest of the weekend ; untill Monday when i can find out for sure if she's really pissed. I hate when shit like this goes on because i can never relax propely untill i know that i've smoothed things out with my friend and that im not in any sort of trouble with them. i don't want any feuds , i dont need that drama. especially over something as dumb as a MOVIE!i'd like to stay friends with all of my friends,at least for now.
Merrick -who dosent go  to Westmount anymore- paid us all a visit yesterday and he and Tara decided to be extras in out commercial , along with Chafic and Joner and a few others. We shot it in this alley way , it was pretty fucking funny. I was telling Tara and Merrick about the Meagan thing and they just told me to calm down and not get worked up over it since Meagan isnt somebody anybody should get upset over , according to the two of them." Its .. Meagan." said tara , simply. They dont take her very seriously , and arent as close with her as i am and think that she's more like somebody you laugh at instead of get worried about. Thier nice to her , and dont hate her or anything , but thier far more nonchalant toward her than i am. i realy have two sets of friends , The Meagan/ Jenna/Sara/Jade group and the Tara/Chafic/Joner/Samson/Yehuids group. we all know eachother and enjoy eachother's company , but im kind of the medium between the two crowds- im the bridge over the water , so to speak. The two gropus mingle , but only really through me. The two groups are just a bit too different from eachother to really bond. The Meagan crowd is a tad more straight-laced , and while i think the Tara Crowd is hysterical , The Meagan Crowd generally believes that The Tara Crowd is just weird. If im gonna be perfectly honest , i have to say that i tend to lean more easily toward the Tara Crowd , but that dosent mean i dont love  the Meagan crowd. i love all my friends , absolutley. And so , you can kind of get a sense of the situation im in...
Shooting the commercial was halarious ; the premis of it was , we had to develop an ad campaign for ornage juice and had written a script that poked fun at teen stereotypes . We would play the " Bad Seed " teens who were about to sneak off to an " alcoholic party", but the booze would end up being juice. We had oursetting - the alley- awfully packed with extras  and we got to work. It got done fairly quickly , and without too many problems. Emile manned the camera  and follwed the rest of us around as we said our lines and improvised quite often. The final product was terribly funny. Weall sat around and watched it after it was done , and it's 2 minutes of pure magic , as far as im concerned! lol.. The tag-line for the ad was " Orange juice: You wont regret it , cuz its not illegal!"  We had all thse props , like funnels and stuff , and we just had ppl chugging juice and bellowing things like: "VITAMIN C ROCKS MY SOCKS!!" It got a little out of hand , and everybody was just going mental and on screen it really looks great. we better get some kind of passing grade for this shit , thats all i have to say. Once the commercial was complete , Jack took out his " supplies" and began rolling joints and this other guy , Mike Bochner; whos a friend of Joner's , was sitting on these steps and snorting crushed -up pills or something and i took this as my cue to leave. I wasnt in a " I -Wanna -Get -Stoned" sort of mood , and i dont do pills. i guess the teen stereotype of kids today all being on drugs or wtv isnt so much of a streotype after all , eh?
Halloween update: Peter and i wont be going as Jack and Sally , that plan has been scraped. But never fear- a "couples theme" can still be expected; i've already got my half of the costume and Peter just has to add the finishing toches to his. we'll be going as - are you ready for this?- an escaped mental patient and his nurse. How cool , right? Peter's going to try and get one of those hospital gowns and make his hair messy and tape a fake syringe to his arm. Ive bought one of those old-fashoined nurses outfits with thhe hat and the apron and everything. And i 'd like to carry around a tray with all this candy in bottles; and it will be peter's 'medication". Ive already got my stock of Smarties! He'll be my sweet little halloween schitzophrenic and i'll feed him his chocolatey meds to keep him sane! lmao..
Celebrity news: There are rumors floating around that paris Hilton and Nicole richie are friends again. personally , to me , the reunion of those two is scarier than the Nuclear bomb that North Korea has gotten its hands on!! 
Upcoming Movie that im really interested in: Marie Antoinette. ive seen the trailer , it looks really good.

..And thats all for now.

PUNCHED IN THE NOSE! ( ..and other stuff that has happend to me recently , both good and bad)

On Friday , during lunch , i was watching Tara and chafic tackling eachother and just generally smacking eachother around ; but i suppose i wasnt paying enough attention because i ended up getting PUNCHED IN THE NOSE!! Chafic was aiming his fist at Tara , she ducked or something , and -POW! , SHAZAM! YOWZA!- his blow landed on me instead. i was HIT IN THE FACE! ..HARD! i , of course , go mental. at first , i think my nose might start bleeding and then i thought about it maybe even being broken and how you sometimes get two black eyes if your nose is broken- my mind just erupted with all this shit , and im in a total panic. i was totally taken by surprise , im just floored. i yell at chafic ; he keeps going: " Im sorry , im sorry , god , im so sorry ! are you ok!?" and i just kept going: " of course im NOT ok , you motherfuckercocksuckerbastardsonofabitchcuntlicker!!!" i was furious with him. But then i realized that i was fine, and that my nose was just really sore and not bloody or busted. so i calmed down , somewhat. and i felt loads better once i saw him slap tara on the sides of her head and her ears went bright red and all she could hear was buzzing for a good minute or so. i decided that i had gotten off easy. She and chafic are like two kittens , always romping around and playfully ( and not so playfully) hurting eachother. its been that way forever. everybody alive thinks they should go out , but neither will admit to liking the other. im just waiting for the day that somebody walks in on them having violent sex in the janitors closet or something.
Also , embarassing moment for me: As you may know , i havent known Mel for that long ; only since school began . she and sloane were friends of tara's and yehudis' , i really just met her. Her full name is Melissa , but ive gotten  so much into the habit of calling her Mel , that i made a wee little mistake . we were put into groups for Mass Media , and i was busy writing all of our names down onto this paper.. i  wasnt even really thinking. i was just going: " Vince , Emile, Jack.." and then i got to Mel , and i wrote " Melanie". she looked over my shoulder and said : ; whos Melanie?' i just clapped my hand over my mouth , i was moderately horrified. she was giving me this weird look  , i could have died. She must think im really stupid , or that i havent been paying much attention to her at all. i hated myself. i quickly scribbled out 'Melanie" and wrote " Melissa" , but the damage was done. I made a fool out of myself and she might even be angry with me now. or perhaps im over-reacting... but still , its upsetting.
Also: we were all talking about shampoo at some point on Friday , and i said something about using 2 in 1 , and everybody freaked out. They were like: " 2 in 1 ??! How could you!!?" apparently , all civilized ppl use shampoo and conditioner seperately. i was befuddled by this , and i still dont fully understand. Is it that much of a difference? and isnt it more work ; putting in shampoo , rinsing it out , then putting in conditioner and rinsing it out? it just makes the showering process that much longer- and sometimes , you just wanna be in and out fast , you know? Its not like my hair isnt clean , and its not like im using Dollarstore brands or something.. so what the fuck is the big deal?
And: i was in french class , and the teacher was having voulenteers go up to the board and write out verbs. i was so sure i knew what i was doing -*tra-la-la ; verbs are so easy!*- but then  i write out this shit in FUTUR SIMPLE and its all wrong! everybody else got thier's right , and the teacher had to point out that mine was incorrect , and there it was, up on display on the chalkboard infront of 30 of my classmates. Great.
But: today is the first of October , which means Halloween isnt too far off , and Halloween is the single best holiday ever and i have to start thinking about what i'll be dressing up as since we'll be allowed to be in costume at school that day. Peter ( who is transferring to westmount at last  and will be around by Halloween !!!!!  HURRAH!) has suggested that we go as Jack and Sally from the Nightmare Before Christmas , but i dont know if we'd be able to pull it off properly without spending alot of money. Its a kick-ass idea , but if it couldnt look amazing , then it wouldnt be worth it. Its still in consideration , though. There will be a definite "couples" theme with the two of us thats for sure.
And lastly: on saturday , i finallly saw the Covenant. though it was not as good as i expected it to be and all the women in it were only there to look hot  and say things like " Im scared!" , " whos there!" , "hello?" and ' wow , that guy is cute!" ; it still wasnt a complete waste of my time - it was a step up from The Wikcer Man , at least! some of the lines were pretty silly ; for instance , there's this scene where the four main  guys , who all have magic powers , are being chased through the woods by cops. They're in this Hummer , going a million miles an hour , hurtling past trees , and suddenly , they use they're powers to escape the cops and fly the Hummer right over the edge of a cliff. as the Hummer is sailing into the air , one of the guys bellows : " HARRY POTTER CAN KISS MY ASS!"  There's another part where the guys are at this club and debating wether or not this one girl at the bar is wearing underwear. One of the guys says " fellas , that girl hast worn underwear since she was 12!" and he uses his powers to prove his point -a mysterious wind whips the girls skirt up to reveal her bare-naked ass. These guys are supposed to be really , really strong ; thier powers are all mystical and sacred , and THIS is what they use them for?! i was getting a little annoyed. but things picked up- the movie itself is very nice to look at , its very slick and  well-shot. And the special-effects are pretty wicked , the final show-down in this abandoned barn is pretty intense. you'll have a hard time buying the fact that the guys are only supposed to be around 17 , since they all look at least 25 , but hey , isnt that always the case with movies? Personally , i think it could have been worse.

BREAKING NEWS: IM NOT DEAD!

..Just extremely busy. I have less free-time on my hands than ever before. I've been neglecting my xanga duties because ; well ; between school , friends , school , peter , friends and , of course , school , i barely even have a chance to breathe anymore. I feel as if i havent slept  , washed or eaten peoperly in over a week. seriously , ive been living on caffeine , cereal , toast , gum , 12-second showers , and a few tokes here and there. I have no clue what im currently running on. my energy is ..non-existant. Im barely even at home ever anymore ; im in classes from 8 in the morning to 3 in the afternoon , then my friends are dragging me places , and then peter is dragging me places. i dont even get to rest on weekends! my phone is ringing ; ppl are demanding to speak with me while i still have crust in my eyes! The actual school-work  ive been getting is driving me up a wall ; im doing so well in some classes and im fucking lost in other classes. homework takes HOURS , writing notes takes HOURS , studying takes HOURS. I fell asleep last night using my science textbook as  a pillow and had a mark on my face as if somebody had whacked me across the cheek. And earlier today , i met up with peter after school , i took the bus to his place , his mom wasnt around ; we're on the couch , he's got his hand up my shirt , kissing my neck , and all i can think is : "IM TOO TIRED FOR THIS!" -which is really , really depressing. Peter understood  , though , and so we spent the next hour watching Dr.Phil and making fun of it. And that was ok , but i hated myself for being too exhausted to have a decent trip to first  base. It was really frustrating ; here i am , and id rather take a nap then make -out with my boyfriend. i was too tired to be turned on...shit! something is terribly wrong here. Im  surviving on something like 3 or 4 hours of sleep a night ; im always either doing an essay or making up answers to my math questions or wandering with frineds and i usually get to bed after midnight. But what can i do? especially about the school parts , thats certainly not going to change. Actually , it should only get worse- the first month of school is drawing to a close and now we are really into the swing of things. i guess i'll just have to be my sweet , adorable self and grin and bear it?!..lmao..
So , whats been going on in my life since i last updated?
Tons ; none of it exceptionally interesting , mind you.
All of my frineds are currently in relationships , each one more crazed then the last. Im not sure if i approve of any of thier new mates ; they all remind me too much of Remi and the 13 year old girl ( you remember me talking about that? yes , yes , of course you do).First on the list is Leila  , whos dating some guy named Jay. She's MAD about him , totally obsessed , they text eachother like little ...texting monsters. the only trouble is , she's 15 , hes 19 and he's a drug dealer. its one thing to DO drugs , but it seems like a bigger issue to actually SELL them . like , PROFESSIONALLY. ive met him , and hes impressively hot ; but he gives me the creeps. he cannot want Leila for more than one thing , right? and she is far too nice and wonderful to be used and tossed like that -but i know its going to happen. and shes absolutely allowed herself to become infatuated with this guy , which will only make things harder in the end. Next , there's Megan who's dating a guy named Nick Cadet who works with her part-time at Mcdonalds. hes also hot , but also older ( she's 15 , he's around 18). plus , he's a notorious playboy- aside from working at Mcdonalds , hes a senior at our school ; and the WHOLE FUCKING WORLD knows that he dates girls for two days (untill he can manage to screw them) and then he never talks to them again. i have a hard time feeling sorry for megan , though , because she's getting all involved when she knows how awful Nick's reputaion is. Its almost as if shes asking for it.But isnt that a cool name?...Nick Cadet. It sounds great. But he , as an individual , sucks. There's also Alyssa ; whos cheating on her 20 year old boyfriend with some 24-year old ex. She wont shut up about it , either , and i never have a good excuse to just walk away , so i have to stick around and listen to the same story over and over and nod and look concerned and pretend that i care. ( which i stopped doing quite some time ago..) And there's Jenna , who isnt in any official Boyfriend/girlfriend situation ; but who has some 21-year old visit her every now and then . she tells me that she dosent even really like him , but he buys her things , so she strings him along.(im particularily revolted by this ) .she met him over the summer while she was a camp- counsiller ; apparently , she was very , very popular at camp and , according to Megan , did "everything that you can do , exept for full-blown sex." This leaves alot to the imagination , and frankly , im the most shocked by Jenna's antics , since last year , she hadnt even really kissed a boy and used to ask me things like ;" How do girls give blow-jobs?" In three short months , she pretty much became an expert. I might end up asking HER things now! well , im not a virgin , but me ane peter are tame compared to this bunch! We've been together for a while now , and are pretty rock-steady . we're comitted to eachother , and i know that i can trust peter. My frineds are going with these fucking assholes. Do they have no respect for themselves? what about.. ..common sense???!! And , ok , it isnt ALL of my friends , but more than enough! Its not really my place to comment , though , no matter how much i want to. Its thier buisness , and my frineds are good ppl-just a bit stupid , on occassion.
What else about these friends 'o' mine? well , Mel has cut her hair short and im not sure if it suits her. Yehudis has dyed hers a dark brown , and it looks fantastic. Speaking of Yehudis ; here's a funny moment that deserves to be mentioned- a while ago , bored in gym , I watched Tara molest Yehudis ( just grab her boobs , as a joke ) and then , Mr.Redhead , the teacher , was staring at them in this fashion that was border-line perverted. Tara got really embarassed and awkwardly let Yehuids go. Yehudis, of course , was laughing like a loon. so was i.  And back to Mel for the briefest second- we were sitting in Moral Ed , and she just randomly leans over and tells me : "i had the most fucked up dream last night.. i dreamt that i was being eaten out by one of the Ying Yang twins!" Well , i lost control completely ; went hysterical with laughter , got kicked out of the room and had to spend 15 minutes in the hall , trying to calm down. And more about Tara for a minute - we're doing shit with polynomials in math recently , and she has taken to just repeating the word over and over . every now and then she'll just say "polynomials" in this strangled sort of voice , and i'll almost laugh and i'll have to tell her to shut up. And Franco is no help- he and Tara saw one of the Sex Pistols pins on my bag and now they both keep saying " BOLLOCKS" in these shitty accents and im sitting there at my desk , biting on my tongue so hard to keep myself from laughing that im litterally bleeding. i cant control myself , and this is MATH , alright? a class i should REALLY be paying attention in because im HORRIBLE. Another thing- we were all at pizza today for lunch , and we ran into this cute little Gr.7 kid that we all know. He sat down at the booth with us , but left in disgust after  Yehudis and i started throwing our crusts at eachother . Apparently , we were being too "immature". The kid is , like , 12!! what nerve! and we werent being immature , we were having some fun. i , for one , was stunned!
Last Friday , it was 'Wacky Olympics " at Westmount High- a truly terrible tradition that i try to skip every year. Basically , this is what happens- its an entire day spent out in the field at the back of the school building. the whole school participates, and plays  these really  painfully lame , half-assed public -school games . Your also given a free snack ; nameless hot dogs and burgers that taste like plastic. you get dirty , sweaty , bored shitless , and probably food-poisoned. Sounds marvelous , dosent it? Dont you wish YOU could join in on Westmount Wacky Olympics?? *sarcasm*..OOh , i fucking HATE wacky olympics; and so do a majority of my friends , so each of us try to bargain with our parents and get them to let us stay home. my parents agree that wacky olympics is a waste of everybody''s precious time , so they gave me the green light and i went to see JACKASS 2 ; which was halarious. (Though , not for anybody with weak stomachs..;) ) Since im on the topic of movies ; i recently bought a cult-favourite from the early 80s , a little thing called "Valley Girl" And i KNOW how i tore into Nicolas Cage a few entries ago , and yes , its still true- the man is completely and utterly without any acting talent. He makes the same face in every scene and is no better-looking despite his youth and all of his emotion seems so forced and over-done and ...just bad. But even he cant ruin 'Valley Girl" , the story of a rich and shallow debutante who falls hard for a post-punk , "New-Wave"-y guy  from the other side of the tracks. plus , the soundtrack is such fun; so cheesey and so fucking 80s!!! i mean , they have a whole montage set to the song " I'll Stop The World And Melt With You " by Modern English!!! i mean ...COME ON!!! thats so bad , its amazing. and the wardrobe , good lord!! its perfect!
Speaking of bad songs with powerfully catchy hooks ; watch out for "ManEater" by Nelly Furtado. Its deadly , i tell ya! DEADLY!! ( you have been warned..)
Im almost finished reading "The Adventures of Huckelberry Finn" for my first-term book report. i seemed to have confused this story with "The Adventures Of Tom Sawyer". ( who is Huck's best friend , dontcha know?)  In all honesty , its quite a tolerable kind of book ; it sort of sucks you in , though , i admit , its pretty  difficult to grasp because its written from the view-point of an astonishingly ignorant Hick-boy from the Deep South who is really unable to speak properly. The word " civilized" is spelt " sivilized"  , and sentences often look something like this : " An' we kept a-goin' through the forest , an' i wuz mighty sc'ared that we wuz gonna be seen. Jim warn't afraid  , though , he aint the type to be gettin' nervous."
See? i kind of have the urge to just give Huck a " Hooked on Phonics" workbook , you know?
But the story is decent , once you get past the other stuff. There is no real plot , but parts of it are funny ; and even sad.|
I suppose i will end this (loo-oo-ng , rambling) entry with some celebrity news , in point form , because my fingers have gone numb:
-Anna Nicole Smith's son died on the same day that she gave birth to a healthy baby girl. He was only 20 , and anti-depressants were found in his system. Anna is apparenltly now on suicide watch.
-The messy break-up of Shana and Travis continues: He apparenly hooked up with Paris Hilton ( whoa , that really is the whole world now , isnt it?) and Shana is spitting fire because of it. if i had to pick a side , id have to say shana  ; though i never really liked her much either. she just happens to be the lesser of two evils.
-Pete wentz is dating ashlee simpson....*gags* wow , its like they took   two of my least -favourite and least-attractive ppl on the planet, and rolled them into...one!!!!! If he were to knock her up ; those would be some damn ugly , untalented  , annoying , emo babies!
(AND IN DOPED -UP COUPLES NEWS!)
-Whitney Huston and Bobby Brown have filed for divorce...
- ..but , Kate Moss and Pete Doherty are back together and might even be getting married. ( good! im rooting for those two! He's a british , heroin- shooting rock star ; and she's his blond ,  infamous  , on-again/off-again side-kick? Sound familliar?! All thats missing is a little stabbing-action , and it would be like history repeating itself. Not that i wish that upon poor kate ; she still has alot of super-modeling to do. Is it a coincidence that i also think Pete is sexy(ish)?... _